The first part of this dream is vague. I was somewhere, like at work or school. I did some sort of a joke or prank to someone. I don’t remember what I did though. It ended up started a ball rolling in which they had to print up, I think, a manual or something, which was very big. I found out that it was taken farther than what was intended and created problems. This sort of stunned me. I then had to go to an office of someone. I knew I was in trouble. He called me up to his desk and said something like, “this is how much it cost” and held up a piece of paper pointing to a figure on the page. I looked at it and saw $12,500.00. I couldn’t believe it. How can a manual cost that much? He said, “This has to be paid by someone. Since you caused it you are the likely candidate.” I was stunned. That’s a lot of money and for what? It so bothered me I woke up and was mystified about it. I felt this sense of helplessness and a feeling of being trapped.
(This dream, probably, has a lot to do with a bill I got from the doctors. I got a bill of $540.00 for a blood test! My insurance should pay for it. I was outraged though. For a lot of people that’s like a week and a halfs pay . . . for a standard blood test? I was so aphalled I wanted to call up the place and complain (yeah, like that’s going to do something . . .), whether the insurance payed for it or not, it doesn’t matter. That’s ridiculouos. It left me with this sense of helplessness, of being trapped in a ridiculous system that tries to get as much out of you as it can and justifies it with ‘official’ explanations. I know this feeling. It is the feeling I get from what I call the ‘System’. I haven’t reflected on the ‘system’ for some time. I began to reflect on it again and want to write about it. The whole dream, really, reflects my feelings of helplessness toward the ‘system’ and how I feel powerless about it. It also reflects that feeling of absurdity that surrounds the ‘system’.)