We all have different self’s and different aspects of our self. There are times when these self’s seem like different personalities. Reflecting on this I found myself making an interesting statement. Basically, I said that it seems that all these different self’s were created by a ‘force of passion’. What I mean by this is that a situation arises that forces a person to concentrate a specific passion against a situation. This shows that ‘passion’, as I use it here, is more than just an emotion.
‘Passion’ is a force within that is reacting to a situation in life. It’s like a stance or position we take toward the situations in life. In some respects, the ‘force of passion’ is just a mirror of the situation. By this I mean the ‘force of passion’ is the situation in us. In order for us to react to a situation we need to ‘take it in’, let it within us, let it become a part of us, so to speak. This says that we are intimately bound up with our experiences and that they are as much a part of us as our hand or foot. This is what makes the ‘force of passion’ so powerful. It’s our ‘ingestion’ of our situation. Accordingly, we must take a stance or position in relation to it. This is the ‘passion’ I speak of.
An emotion or reflex is just a reaction to a stimuli. This reaction comes and goes, specific to the stimuli. ‘Force of passion’, on the other hand, has the quality of bringing together a large part of our makeup to deal with the situation. This includes things such as our awareness, our perceptions, our stamina, our intelligence, our physical capability, our abilities, our instincts. Many times, it brings together our whole being, our whole self. In that sense, it’s like a commander trying to bring together all his forces in an organized way to defeat an enemy. In this way, a ‘force of passion’ means that there is a synthesis of many parts of us. This synthesis begins to create the self or self’s.
Life requires this ‘force of passion’ to survive. Without it we couldn’t hold ourselves together. It seems that situations in life create this ‘force of passion’. I should point out that the ‘situations’ I speak of can be anywhere from just existing to a severe trauma. This suggests that a ‘situation’ is a condition where we need to ‘hold ourselves together’, where we need to stand up to a reality. This hints that there is a sense within us that we there is always more to us than what we see and that this is a perception of ourselves that gives us a sense of vulnerability that needs protecting. In other words, a big part of our sense of self is that we need to be protected.
I can see a variety of situations that can cause the ‘force of passion’:
– Life in general. Just living day to day creates a situation requiring a synthesis.
– Crisis and traumatic events. These, probably, create the most dramatic version of this phenomena. This is also why we need crisis in life, to bring together a synthesis of who we are.
– The experiencing of various things. Experiencing things requires us to react to them and so helps develop our self. This is why experiencing things is good for the development of the self.
– A person’s personality and character traits. These can definitely affect a person’s need for ‘force of passion’. Some people may need it more, some need it less. A persons personality can also prone them to other conditions or problems as well.
As we grow the various ‘situations’ create different ‘self’s. These develop from our birth to our death and seem to be ongoing. As a result of this, there is a continual need to keep the self’s synthesized into a whole mass. This means the self is continually evolving and changing.
Each one of us has a ‘synthesized self’. This is the self that consists of a synthesis of our life’s experiences. This is the self we know and what we think is our self and who we are.
There are self’s within us that come and go like a haze. These are more like changes in our state of mind. They can be so suttle that this aspect of a person can happen with a change in emotion.
Dreams can reveal aspects of a hidden self we are not aware of.
There is the ‘conditional self’. This is a self that appears in certain conditions that brings out a part of us we didn’t know we had. Once the condition is gone it, also, disappears. This can be a result of a crisis or even appear at things like parties or sporting activities.
And then there is the ‘non-synthesized self’. This is an aspect of us that is not synthesized into our synthesized self. As a result, they may be there and our synthesized self may know nothing about it, or it doesn’t really acknowledge it. After it appears this self may seem like a ‘dream’ to the synthesized self. In that sense, it’s almost like another personality. It’s not another personality in that much of this self is based on the synthesized self. Perhaps you could compare it to the synthesized self on a ‘high’. This non-synthesized self can have good and bad manifestations. Oftentimes, it seems, the lack of synthesis is caused by a traumatic event. As a result, this type of self is often associated with darker aspects of our self. It seems to me that many serial killers, for example, reflect this quality. When they kill it’s as if a switch is turned on in them that changes their whole perspective, a new self is awoken that they may not fully realize is there.
The non-synthesized self may get so bad that the synthesized self knows absolutely nothing about it. This would create person with multiple personalities. It seems that these personalities may be caused by traumatic events or by a weakness in a person’s personality or both. It’s always been my impression that multiple personalities is more of a personality weakness than a reaction to a trauma. Though, most certainly, a traumatic event can cause it as well. I have always thought that the development of multiple personalities happen at a young age, probably before 4 years at least. This is why different personalities develop, as the self is not developed yet. Each personality is probably a result of reacting to a specific ‘situation’, as the ‘force of passion’ is a response to ‘situation’. This means each personality is geared to a specific situation and is limited in its capabilities, which often seems to be the case. Since these selves appeared so early, and before there is much of a synthesized self, they develop independently, like separate people, creating different personalities.
It shows that the synthesized self is a result of developmental growth. In other words, a synthesized self is ‘grown’. When various reactions to various situations develop as they grow it may disrupt this growth pattern. This can lead to problems. But, at the same time, it may actually strengthen people. This hidden self may be the source of much artistic ability, for example.
It also shows that the overall synthesized self is needed to keep the whole person as a single entity. It is like a glue that holds everything together.
It seems, though, that we all have parts of us that are unsynthesized as we grow. This seems normal. Many of us probably grow out of much of our unsynthesized self’s, created in our youth, as we grow. Perhaps many of us have multiple personalites that we grow out of and never know were there? I wouldn’t be surprised if this is not uncommon.
In general, it seems that the situations in life create a ‘force of passion’ which forces us to bring together many aspects of ourselves. It does this with the sense of needing to protect all that we are. In this sense, the self is a self preservation phenomena. This sense of ‘togetherness’ develops a sense of self as well as an ability to hold oneself together. But we are made up of many aspects and qualities. We are always needing to synthesize these qualities into our self and our make up. When we’re young the self is not fully developed and the varying situations and personality makeup of who we are create parts of us that are ‘unsynthesized’. Much of this unsynthesized self is synthesized as we grow but some is not. For some people this can lead to psychological problems or even give people strengths and abilities.
Much of the qualities of our self, from synthesized to unsynthesized, create great versatility and mystery in life.