Monthly Archives: January 2012

“Too many times I’ve drifted along the way” – with comments about the ‘disorientation of beingness’

Too many times I’ve drifted along the way tumbling so, to an alien tune never finding my way, I’ve found myself here ever recanting the endless phrase hardly forgotten, hardly achieved those things in life that are sought how shall … Continue reading

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A dream about being charged with murder and fleeing the law

The beginning of the dream is vague.  I was in a wooded area running.  I was avoiding people and being seen.  Apparently, I supposedly committed a murder and I was charged with it.  Because of this, they were after me.  Several … Continue reading

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A dream about having my truck stolen

I parked my truck in an area which was on the corner of a street.  I can’t recall where I went though.  When I came back it was gone.  I may of called my dad as he appeared.  I had this strange notion that … Continue reading

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“Staring at the abyss, I find my reflexes numb” – with a remark on the crisis of having no reaction to beingness – the ‘beingness sickness’?

Staring at the abyss, I find my reflexes numb unrehearsed, unlearned, and ignorant am I in this reaction blankness comes upon me like a thick velvet veil shutting out the light of life unreaction, it becomes my friend, my bedfellow … Continue reading

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Thoughts on why I never wanted to go back to school

I have never desired to go back to school again.  I spent a lot of my life in school.  I went through the standard public school then went to Technical College and the University.  I was in it so long … Continue reading

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With a blast I send out my POW!!!

With a blast I send out my POW!!! demonstrating the force of my cannon passing through the wind, the shot falls short there in the level plain a new gaping chasm has found its way with a great cry it is born! … Continue reading

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Quivering ground, dancing at my feet

Quivering ground, dancing at my feet jiggles to and fro with unrest remaining unsettled, never finding its calm a great mirror of my self oh, that quaking of life penetrating striking deep to a forgotten center sharp! hard! a great … Continue reading

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Thoughts on the confrontation of beingness – practicing ‘deliberate beingness’

Confronting ones beingness is not always easy.  It can be very painful.  It causes a great strain within the self.  This is not surprising for the confrontation of beingness is when the self is ‘put in the spotlight’.  The self becomes the … Continue reading

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Thoughts on how the British royal tradition turned the common male into nobodies . . . and powerful as well

I’ve noticed, a lot, how American guys are often like nobodies.  They have no charisma, no personality.  Many have a ‘common’ look, as if they look the same, almost ‘generic’ look.  Many of us are treated like that too.  There … Continue reading

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A dream about how it took a long time to get my food

I don’t recall the first part of the dream but it seems there was some stuff going on.  I ended up having some people walk me to a room.  It was almost like I was in jail and was ‘escorted’ … Continue reading

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